Ugh, this is sort of agonizing, waiting waiting waiting for my book to come out. For months, even after all the work with Bantam was done for putting it together, it was this distant thing in my mind. But now its presence just keeps looming nearer and nearer. Rick Bowes told me that every writer becomes neurotic the first time they ever have a book come out. If I’m typical, then that’s true. Justine Larbelestier has written a ton of entries in her online journal over the past few years about the beginning of her writing career, and I was always interested in what she was writing about, but right now I’m really thankful to have them to read through and see a lot of the weird emotional bubbling going on inside me at the moment is not that strange an experience, as Rick said.
Nonetheless, I will be glad when the anticipation and constant obsessing goes away. *
*I would normally say that obsessing is something we have to stop on our own, with willpower. I see now, though, that in cases like this one, willpower is completely useless.